Is this thing on?
I have been absent in the world of the blogging for years. Today, things will begin to change.
When I first started by blog, I was in a world of chaos.
I had just received my Bachelors in Psychology along with my Minor in Counseling and I was tirelessly filling out resumes day-after-day in the hopes of landing a job in the a field that related to my degree. I was constantly thinking about my ex and believing that living in close proximity to him would be the spark to rekindle our relationship and the change needed for our relationship to work. In addition, I was living in a house occupied by fifteen of my family members.
The pressure to begin my adult life and start my professional career had increased to the point that I was sleeping and eating less and throwing random tantrums when my family asked questions about my life.
After researching ways to deal with stress and reading on how writing could be a helpful coping strategy to deal with my anxiety, I decided to start this blog.
During the process of writing and reflecting on my life, I was better able to understand the multiple traumas that had occurred in my childhood and how they shaped my perception of the world. The more I wrote, the more comfortable I became about sharing intimate moments of my life and gradually, the number of followers on my blog started to grow. Soon, they began sharing their own traumatic experiences, disclosing how they overcame those obstacles, or how they were dealing with their daily struggles.
Regardless of how different our paths in life had been, my followers were able to find something to relate to in my writings and were supportive and encouraged my journey of self-discovery.
Engaging with them offered insight on the importance of sharing life moments with strangers and made me aware of my need for connecting with people no matter how different we each may seem.
That was five years ago.
Today, I can confidently say that, at the core, I am still me, but my understanding of the world has changed.
I no longer carry the burden of others on my shoulders and have prioritized myself and my mental health.
I can only laugh now when I think back on how I used to blame myself for the actions of those around me and how I approached life trying to vigorously help every single person that meant something to me.
I almost lost my sanity in doing so.
I can let go now and move forward with my life.
I would like to say thanks. For the people that randomly showed up in my life – the ones who broke my heart, the ones who pieced it back together, and the ones who filled it with love.
I am not alone. And I hope you, whoever you may be or wherever you may come from, understand that you’re not alone either.
I was once you. And in some strange way, I hope this journey that we call life, brings us closer together.
Here’s to the future and the continuation of sharing my life experiences with the beautiful people willing to listen.
Thank you! Truly.